i feel like such a whore?

sure is texting me quite a bit and is wanting to hang out?

hmmmm.

seems kinda fishy to me…

o.O

i’ve fallen in love with a whole new boy. he’s my everything.<3

we’re gonna get married and have a family one day. he sure does put me through hell 

and back, but hes worth it. hes taken things step by step and has made necessary 

changes along the way. i can see myself with this boy forever.

he is my first and last kiss, i think im feeling it.<3

i dont think you seem to realize, how much i love you and how much i want to be with you. can you not tell by the way i look at you, talk to you, smile at you? you must be one crazy boy. i love your voice and the way you talk. i love how i can go to you for anything and you dont think im crazy. i love how you understand me sooo well. i love how even though we’ve only known eachother since the beggining of the summer, it feels like i’ve known you my whole life. can’t you see, boy, that i love you? that i want you? that i need you?

i guess ill just have to wait for you to finally realize that you love me too…

we used to talk 24/7. you dont even look at me anymore. we were best friends and hadn’t fought in months. now, after one stupid mistake i made, we’re back to how we used to be. this isn’t us anymore. we arent supposed to fight. i never meant to ‘use’ you. i dont even know what the hell i was thinking. im struggling so much without you by my side anymore. i miss our hour long phone calls and our all day weekend hang outs. i miss laughing, crying, and smiling with you. i hate not feeling invincible anymore. i want to be on top of the world again and the ONLY person who can get me there is you. you dont know what im going through. you dont know how much i need you. i need to talk to you more than anything. im just scared to ask to talk. i dont want to make anything worse. nobody in those whole fuckin world knows how much i care about you. you dont even know. everyone thinks im stupid for continuously going back to you. but they dont understand. they dont fuckin understand. you dont even understand. i need you back to keep living. i need you back to get my happiness back and dont you dare and dont anybody dare tell me that i dont need you to make me happy. cause i do. fuck this. fuck this fighting. fuck! i want everything to be back to normal now! TALK TO ME DAMMIT.

i need you </3